After reading over my orignal PPP and looking through these contextual passages, I must note how dramatically my project has changed and altered and think why/how this has happened.

Originally I intended to explore the power of technology in terms of how it affects out intimacy as a society and with relationships too. This was because I had become very aware of the fact that social media and our technological devices were becoming a big source of communication. Now, I see that technology is in fact our main source of communication therefore it is vital for our sense of intimacy. 

However, near the beginning of my part 3, the theme of the 'male gaze' became a big thing to me, mainly because I feel that it isn't talked about enough even though there are so many feminist works out there and feminism is massive today. However the male gaze and how the female body is sexualised so easily, was affecting me in my daily life and I was fed up of feeling disgusting whenever I get a wolf whistle - something that all women experience, and puts women down so easily, 

Then came the common idea that 'women are asking for it' which was a conversation I had when I mentioned my issue with being wolf whistled at. The fact is, even if women are wearing minimal clothing, they are never asking to be sexualised and seen literally as 'something to eat'. 

So, the original theme of technology and intimacy gradually changed into the theme of the male gaze and the objectification of women as food. This change makes sense for me because I see it more beneficial to comment on a personal matter than is constantly on my mind rather than something else, even if it is also interesting and obviously relates to us all right now in isolation. 

So, whilst finishing my last outcome editing, I hope it comes across as provocative and makes my audience actually think about small commentary, daily actions, towards their perception of women.

I have experimented greatly in order to come up with the most successful outcome.

So far I have learnt a few crucial things:

• The udder idea was good inside my head but once I made the fake udders and the cow print top, it looked too literal and obvious as if it was a halloween costume. I need to think more conceptually if I want to be provocative and make my audience think.
• The greenscreen idea, too, proved a failure because I do not have the right technology at home for this. My computers aren't as developed as the ones in Archway.
• Therefore I am going to dive into research now and focus on my AIM: Being provocative and making my audience question on how women are perceived in daily life. I will read over my Instagram feedback from my bread and jam performance and think how I could adapt this and develop it for a more successful performance video.
• I also need to plan carefully how I will record this and communicate it well. I want to create a video as well as photographs as it adds another depth which photos can't communicate. Right now communication is vital as I won't be there in real life to explain it all.

After filming myself in this vlog idea, I need to reflect on a few things

firstly I like the fact it is satirical and ironic, also how it is mocking a modern society and actually utilising modern addictions, especially given quarantine, as youtube is very common and popular in society now. Vloggers are in.

however, I think as an outcome idea I feel it isn't right

• ''question in-depth what you’re aiming'' It has become apparent in my recent experiments that i want to question how women are viewed in society, why this is and how i can successfully portray it.
• ''Are you making cloth that you’re eating on your own and asking us to watch? Are we all behaving like we are supposed to, now that we only communicate through video? How do we dress up every day? What do we eat? How much time do we spend eating / preparing food?'' All these questions are very interesting and pose different angles in my thinking. The fact that three of these questions involve simple day to day activies (eating, getting dressed, preparing food) makes me want to focus my experiments on simple actions as this will relate to everyoine. IE the idea of wearing a costume but doing normal activites in it creates an interesting juxtaposition.
• I suggest that you make a ‘simple / quick’ version of it, experiment / perform with it and then make it more detailed accordingly to your findings. Reflect if the costume is limiting your body movement or are your body movements designing the costume and then forcing you to move differently? This makes a lot of sense, and i know i want to try out this idea so today i will aim to create a very simple animalistic costume which could only cover hands for instance, and then reflect on its effect on my body
• You are looking mostly at artists from the 70s, which are great references. When reflecting about their work consider how the situation has / or not changed (female situation). How would you make a similar work today? How will it be received today? This is something i need to look into when ido more research because it definitely has changed in many ways however it is clearly still an issue that affects women lik myself day to day.

After Discussing with Annelore about my project and which pathways i could follow, the idea of specifically linking women to animals in the way they are seen, portrayed and reacted to interests me most.

I want to focus on creating a costume or performance as this was my original aim and i would like to experiment with materials.

I am thinking perhaps making a simplistic cow costume, and then wearing it during a performance of acting 'lady like'.

Before i start making, i will reseasrch into the sources Annelore sent me and look for some of my own inspiration too.

I love the recent art pieces I have found, and am excited to get back into experimentation.

The idea of creating wearable costumes from food is what I want to aim for, and I think specifically creating pieces for sexualised body parts, ie lingerie, works best as it is clearly creating sexualised content

I must think more closely about what foods, but now I will start off with spaghetti because I like the idea of weaving. I want to create spaghetti lingerie essentially, as this links to the male gaze, objectification of women, and I will film it to make the communication method similar to the way social media is working with covid-19: lots of footage, no physical intimacy, yet mental intimacy.

Perhaps I could make a performance piece like I did with the bread piece as I found that comical yet sinister which intrigued me. I will post all my content online and ask for peers feedback to push my ideas further and get new ideas.

Due to such big changes happening so fast, I haven't made any progress with my art and have lacked motivation to push my project further. I have realised that without classmates, society, tutors, it is much harder to find motivation; especially when all I can think about is this pandemic, and my family.

After a week off, I now need to get back into my art and reflect on feedback from Annelore. The fact corona links to intimacy is important, and I feel it is necessary to include reflections of life recently due to the virus in my work, because it feels wrong not to reflect on the main issue on my mind (and societys).

Once I upload all my sketchbook pages, videos, and research I haven't yet put onto workflow, I will sit down and go through it all. I hope this will help give me links and ideas to my current situation.

Looking at my original plan and timetable, this isolation changes everything and makes the timetable impossible to stick to. Therefore I will make a new plan to ensure I don't lose track again. I shall put this  into my sketchbook so I see it everytime I sit down to work on my ideas,

Today I experimented with how I can demonstrate the female body as an object, and what materials or clothing represent sexuality...I started off with bras and knickers, which I found particularly provocative if they were made of lace or not a lot of material.

The arrangement, colours and materials did change my focus and ideas because the red and leopard print ones gave off much more of a sexual vibe compared to the ones for comfort.

It made me think why do women wear things like this , is it for themselves or is it for the male gaze.

It isn't just about how males see women it is about how we see ourselves too

After covering breasts with bras and knickers It made me think of directly sexual things like porn where women are literally dressing up and performing for males.

It is complete objectification of women

Therefore I tried out using 2 female models instead of just one and this really gave off more of a sexual, objectification vibe...the idea of girl on girl, as males like it? 

The whole thing makes me feel slightly sick and uncomfortable but I want my audience to feel this sense too.

I want to now challenge what materials I use because knickers and bras are too literal so I want to think of how I can represent sexuality using other things, like symbols

Males see women as an object but how we women see themselves and how can we change this

I want to look more into this sexual girl on girl idea because it is really bugging me!

After using boxes on bodies as sort of outfits and seeing how this affects interaction, I know I want to focus more on the body itself.

the boxes were not as effective as I thought perhaps due to their small size, so I could try bigger boxes before I change the idea fully

however, the key element from the experimentation was definitely the way the body's appearance changed and so did its movement. It made the body not a body anymore, more of an object.

It makes me think again about the female body as an object.

Now I will go find larger boxes because I want to conceal the human body shape more, so much so that the human cannot move properly at all.

Today I must:

• finalize my proposal for Park. 
• Upload all bauhaus research to workflow and photocopy pages to annotate in my sketchbook
• Upload all Whitechapel research
• Talk to Annelore and then take final proposal to Adrian
• Print more images to collage with, linking to shape rather than fabric
• Experiment this evening using cardboard boxes on my body

The most significant piece today was definitely the red sculpture named 'Red creeper' which took up half the room, by Veronica Gerber Bicecci in 2004.  It was automatically eye catching not just because of its large scale, but also due to the unique shape and bold red colour. the use of small round bobbbles on the knitted fabric made it more intruiging, and i like this idea of experimenting with fabrics to create a complex structure overall.

It was commenting on a new post-human world, which links to my project as i am also interested in a futuristic society. Perhaps we won't have any intimacy as we only resort to technology to satisfy our needs. 

To quote the artist, this sculpture 'invades the gallery like a new life form' which automatically gives the piece a sense of surrealism and futurism. It makes me want to interact with it, however i must note this sculpture cant be touched which i think takes away from the overall sense of interaction, communication.

It makes me want to create a bold structure but one that invites my audience to touch, feel, play with, wear even. This would add another dimension and link further to intimacy. It also makes me think back to lucy orta's compression cradle as this was all about the user feeling something physically.

This week i must focus on doing/making as i only have 4 weeks after to do so before Easter.

I have found various research sources which i must complete my reflections on as this will spur on ideas for making.

Then i must begin my sketchbook, printing out my images from yesterday's performance experimentation, and creating sketches of ideas for preventing movement to come.

I will also photocopy pages from certain books i have got out CSM library, and stick these into my sketchbook followed by close analysis of the texts/images.

By the end of the week i must have continued experimentation of my performance ideas and shown all of my development and ideas thoroughly in my sketchbook. I must have a clear idea on how i will source my next fabrics or shapes to continue my costume ideas stemming from preventing intimacy and movement.

Lastly, if i have time, i want to bring in ideas from the article i found yesterday because i found the idea of 'male gaze' and impact of online porn for women interesting and pressing to today's society. So i will think how i can bring this into my project.

I am thinking about how I can use my time to make the most of studio practice. For example, today various people were using workshops like wood or clay which means they are making and developing ideas in a more sufficient way.

I want to ensure I will use the clay workshop and experiment with materials next week and use this week to find further research and stick to my plan.

Now I must focus on my PPP and making my aims clear. I am investigating into intimacy and how the digital world affects it.

Therefore, I must closely look into ‘what is intimacy’, and interview people about what it means to them. I will record this in my sketchbook.

Using my research this week has given me ideas of connecting people together as a performance piece perhaps, as a starting basis. I will use the fact I have peers available at school to my advantage.

Tomorrow I have an independant day so I will go to the CSM and LCF libraries to get out books on Rebecca horn, as well as other possible artists like sarah lucas perhaps.

After going through my thought processes for part 1 and 2, there are a few key themes that are recurring in my ideas.

• Performance: I am interested in designing and creating performances in both public spaces and private ones with documentation. This is because the idea of connecting on an intimate level with my audience matters greatly to me...Otherwise i think what is the point of art? It needs to have a clear impact on my audience which can be done via performance.
• Costume: This links to performance greatly, with simply more of a focus on designing directly on the body. The idea of using humans is clear in all my ideas.
• Human interaction: I have always been intrigued by how to connect humans socially, with my art, just how we all connect differently. Eg on the tube VS at home, we all act different with our interactions. I would be interested to bring together this idea of intimacy and interaction with my art, perhaps thinking of making a type of piece that is intimate for my viewer in some way.
• Intimacy: this extends my previous idea. Skin on skin, exposure of the body, interaction of bodies, is this seen as sexual? All this interests me.
• Food waste: This is simply an issue that has annoyed me for ages..watching food being wasted again and again whether it be at work or in my shared flat. Maybe i could incorporate this with my ideas.
• Burning bras movement: This idea of liberation for women is something i am researching right now as i find it highly emotive, and revlevent to our day..Why do we, females, still wear bras? They restrict us on a physical and social level and create a sort of glass ceiling. How could i link this to my art....Restricting, bounding, empowerment, liberation....Chains, bras, women, performance, costume.

These are my main interests which i aim to cover a few of. I could look into interaction and then go onto burning bras from there. My starting point would make sense to be performance and interaction as this links to virtually all my other ideas listed. As in, performance links to costume, which i need a point of research for: Womens liberation, intimacy, food waste, any of these.

Now i will carry on my thinking via getting inspiration using 'the artists body' as this contains many performance and body artists, along with visiting the tate modern tomorrow.